cult leader's diary
Ballin Like Bill · Tuesday July 22nd 2025

Heyyyyyyyyyy. So, it's been a bit, hasn't it? I was planning on writing every Sunday, but having to take care of my parent's responsibilities for ten days has been rough. When I get stressed from my parent's disaproval and the weight of their responsibilities, I end up banging out a ton of sugar/caffeine and spending all my money. I don't know exactly why, maybe it gives me something to look forward to during the day. I ended up spending my money on a record player, albums, a NAS box, a server laptop, future appartment decorations etc. totaling around $4k. I know, completely insane. The electronics cost a bit, but the main pull of the 4k were three authentic Hollywood film posters and two authentic Japanese promo art pieces. They were for Oceans 11, La La Land, Baby Driver, Neon Genesis, and Kikis. I won't lie, it was two much money to spend but I think it was worth every penny. The responsibilities were way too much work, they always are, but at least I am nearing the end of those for good. My new appartment, which we toured a couple days ago, will be ready by the turn of the year. Once I move out, I will make sure they understand that if they want a gardener, dog sitter, house sitter, landscaper, and pool cleaner that paying someone else would probably be for the best. The appartment, which is only foundation, electrical, and plumbing right now, looks really nice. It will be expensive, but that is always something you can figure out. Over the last several days, I have finally reset into not spending every penny I own and back into my natural MMO grinding self (which spends next to nothing). I played a bit of WoW, but I spent most of my time picking up OSRS. I played a bit before, about 6 months ago, but not much. I have to say, this time around, I am fully addicted. The WoW streamers I normally watch all decided to start playing at the same time which motivated me to really get going again. I have been no-life skilling while second monitoring Soda, Vei, Pika, Xario, etc. and it reminds me of my WoW glory days when I first started playing. I have always said it; there is no better feeling then grinding an MMO and second monitoring Twitch/YT/TV. It does not get any better than that (perfected if you have a Pipeline Punch to pair). The NAS box I bought has been incredible. I had this really scuffed setup before with a Minis Forum computer, a USB hub, and 6 external HDDs for all my torrenting/media server needs. I saw the recommendation for the bootleg setup in two seperate places, so I decided to send it and it was pretty disfunctional. I am assuming they recommended it because of price/ease of use but I would have to disagree. The NAS route is quite a bit more expensive but it is very easy to set up and I have had zero issues with it so far. There is automatic redundancy, data protection, and encryption which supports a unique 20TBs. If you get the extender, you can get an additional 25tbs. After about 2 years cranking out home lab projects and trying several different setups, my current one is beyond cracked. It goes as follows: 20TB NAS Box (with room to grow) and a dedicated Thinkpad with a media server, full stack website, and torrenting capabilities. So, after the stumble that was my parents vacation, I am back to flourishing. I was born to be an MMO L9 astro-space-cancer glider and that is how I love to lead my life. I will get back to you this Sunday with some further updates, maybe even a maxed skill who knows. Good night and sweet dreams lovelies :3
Pilot · Sunday July 6th 2025

Hi everyone! I've been considering what to do with my home page and figured a weekly blog would be best :). It gives me a place to open up and share some casual details about my life that are otherwise inconsequential to the rest of the site. This week, we sadly moved away from June and Pride Month to suburbanite's favorite holiday, 4th of July. I capped off June by completing my full Shining Pearl Native Dex and finishing Nobody in Particular by Sophie Gonzalez. This book was simply incredible. I was not expecting a book I found off a Goodreads email blast to be this good. The synopsis is an American girl moves from Boulder to the make-believe country of Henland and slowly falls into a relationship with their princess. Sophie does such an amazing job at showing just how deeply a lifetime of being forced to bury yourself can lead you to becoming a frustrated, self-hating, shell of a person. Rose, with some help from Danni, slowly learns there is no nobility in placating the monarchy's bigoted worldview for the sake of others. She comes to accept that the only possible way to live a meaningful and happy life is to do so authentically. 5/5, would absolutely recommend. The beginning of July was spent coping with the looming festivities of the 4th of July. My parents host this holiday, get way into it, and invite a bunch of people over that I really don't get along with. So, I spent the first several days of July trying to take my mind off it and putting a positive spin on my time. I finally got cooking with HRT again! I was inspired by the strength that Danni and Rose showed (even if it was fictional) that I decided to finally full send it. If these bigoted losers hate me for it, then so be it. They would be wrong and I won't let their psychosis affect me any longer. To aid with the transition, I started to get back into shape. I bought this weight vest off Amazon and have been using it to take a 3 mile round trip hike near my neighbourhood. It's eight pounds and I think I maybe should've gotten a heavier one but I can always upgrade later. The sun, the steps, the weights, and the HRT have definitely contributed to me having a much better outlook. Unfortunately, that got shot down once the 4th rolled around, as per usual. My parents were being insane people, saying insane things, and getting mad when I didn't praise them for their takes (I didn't even argue either). This spiraled into me taking way too many stimulants and I was losing my mind. I stayed in my room for the duration of the party, slowly losing my sanity. The next two days were rough, but I think I have finally started to recover. My parents left on a two week trip today, and I would much rather deal with the mountain of chores they left me then their 18th century worldviews. Going into next week, I will be completing the Ultra Sun Living Dex, opening up these Japanese Pokemon cards I ordered, going to the dentist and more. That, however, is for next week's post. Good night and sweet dreams lovelies :3